Heaven

(If you are super religious or super not-religious, just skip this paragraph and start at the next one)
Some believe that when you die, nothing happens. It is an eternal nothingness. Some believe that if you are a faithful Christian, you will go to heaven. I have the belief that God will have mercy on the ones that might not have followed Him, but lived their life like he wanted them to. I think they should go to heaven over someone who might not have been a good person, but preached the word of the Lord. Too often people look down on others because they aren't believers and aren't "Christian", while the person they are looking down on might act like a much better Christian than they do. I am a faithful Christian, but I just don't think such a caring and loving God would send a good person to hell when they might not have grown up with Christianity. It would not be fair to punish someone to an eternity of hell when they were a good person.

When I get to heaven, I don't think there will be any pearly white gates or whatnot. All I can see right now is being reunited with my dad and other lost loved ones. He is what I miss most in the world, so I think that will be the first thing that I see in heaven. I want to see Jesus and just be close to God. Basically, whatever you want heaven to be, will be. I wonder what it will be like, especially since it will be perfect...what then is perfection? Since everyone's "perfect" is different, then is everyone's Heaven different? I might say that there will be an unlimited supply of macaroni and cheese and moberry frozen yogurt, but then I wonder if I will have to eat at all? Also, what about emotions? If I were to die young, I don't think I could not be sad about leaving my loved ones behind and watching them suffer (they better be a little bit sad) without lots of drugs or something. Does heaven have drugs? How is it possible for everyone to be so happy? That weirds me out a little bit. I think I might want to be sad sometimes. Hmmmm...what would heaven look like? For some reason I think about clouds, but it seems weird and a bit chilly to live in the clouds, plus that would mean that we are still part of the world when we die. Is heaven on earth? Where is heaven? I guess that is not an answerable question. After my dad died, I had a dream and he said to me in that dream that if I wanted to get ahold of him, I just had to write him a letter. I could see where he was and it looked like an abandoned ghost town, but there was a white mailbox. I told him that I didn't know the address and asked where to send it so that it would get to that mailbox. He said that I just had to write the letter and it would get to him. After waking up to that, I just thought "what the hell" and I wrote a letter to him and in I asked him to just give me a sign that he was still with me somehow. The next night I woke up and I saw him standing right over my bed, as clear as could be, it was him. Now I'm not one to normally believe in ghosts or anything like that, but if I hadn't seen him die myself, I would not have even questioned his presence there. There he was wearing that worn, ugly, green and purple striped sweatshirt. He just smiled at me, and I shut my eyes and opened them again....still there. I even shook my head and he did not disappear. To me, that showed me that there is something more after death, and somehow he heard me. This also leads me to believe that we still have some sort of connection to heaven. We might not always be able to communicate with them, but I know that they are listening.